Stressed

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First off, I'm sorry for leaving you in the dark for so long.

Long story short, my university fees for the previous year weren't able to be approved until two weeks ago, and my portal page for the uni still hasn't been reopened no matter how many phone calls I make. So since I'm unable to check or submit my modules (and two of my mandatories clashed for some retarded reason), uni is starting without me this semester. And then with not even getting my loan yet despite being approved, that's enough of a reason for my mother to think that I'm not trying hard enough and to threaten me with homelessness.

Combine that with the stress I've been feeling relating to a few cyber bullying incidents and the fact I've been beaten up about it by numerous people since then and being overly sensitive to any sarcastic word sent my way, I've decided I just can't do it. I've cried too much lately. I'm getting insomnia and a nightmare disorder again because of all this too, because no matter what I do to help it never seems to be enough.

It might be all sorted tomorrow, maybe next week, maybe late October. But for now, I'm sorry for everyone I'm roleplaying with.

Kaz

[ORVILLE J.]

Aw man that sounds horrible. I feel you on the uni funds and all. I hope you feel better and eventually come back ; - ;

[TERRA]

kaz, i'm so sorry. those things suck and should not have happened to you, but i guess certain powers just don't like you apparently. i really hope things are going to work out, and that it gets sorted out sooner rather than later.

when it comes to cyberbullying, just distance yourself from it. at least try to. i know it's not easy sometimes, and you just want to justify yourself (which is ridiculous because you're a wonderful person) but nothing is worth getting sick over. i'd suggest taking a break from whatever society that gave you those troubles, but it sounds like you're already well on your way.

in any case, i hope things resolve, and that those people get a grip. i'll miss you around, but you go and rest up! it gets tiring sometimes. and then we'll be right here when you feel up for it again.

[CECILIA S.]

Aw Kaz that sounds awful :c Universities are just...asldfjk I totally understand how stressful and outright shitty they can be.

As for cyber-bullying, I know what went down must have been tough but I want to assure you that you are amazing and wonderful, smart, kind, creative, strong and I am very, very happy to have been able to meet you.

Take care of yourself, okay <3 If you need to take a break, take it, if you need an open ear, feel free to contact me. You can handle this, I know you can and I hope you feel better soon <3

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Thanks for all your support guys, it's been a good mental boost throughout the week.

But now my fees are paid, my modules are sorted and I came back this afternoon from my first lecture! I just need a few days to catch up on the lectures I've missed, and I'll be able to return to full service as a roleplayer and member.

See you out there in the cbox, and thanks again.